i lied

"im fine" i replied

and yet here i am

in bed, cry and yelp

hollow and broken

my words unspoken

on just how much

i loved you

in the green of my eyes

there are tears from my cries

memories fly

and i say goodbye

to feelings romantic

to love fast and frantic

youre way better off

without me

stop

dont say anything

i know how you feel

but please dont yet keel

for its not your fault

that because of my want

i break here and fall

while youre standing tall

its all me

thats how i came to be

id give up my life

so you get to thrive

for i can withstand

all the pain without end

its how its been for me

for a decade and half

i understand wholly

what id give for your laugh